and then, everything made sense.

it all came together at an incredible instance and forever changed everything.

and as quickly as it came it was gone, and there is utter and complete nothingness left in it's place.

30 or so minutes later.........

something has been troubling me lately.....i believe i may be an egomaniac.
i keep getting called an egomaniac recently, and i've had ample time to ponder the possibility that they may be speaking the truth.

webster's defines egotism as:

"1. excessive and objectionable reference to oneself, in writing or conversation.

2. self-centeredness or selfishness"

yes.
yes.

so i'm an egomaniac. why can't we all be egomaniacs? it's all those people out there who think about others all the time that is fucking everything up.

doesn't everyone look at themselves first in a group picture? aren't we all fucking egomaniacs? the only reason people help others in the first place is because they are trying to make themselves feel better about life. ms. ray kroc giving 42 billion dollars to charity is not an act of kindness. that is a desperate act of a sad person trying to console her own demons before she dies.

i sound bitter today....

1 hour and 15 minutes later......

i feel better now....

it's amazing what chipping golf balls in the yard does for me... it is my zen.

i appreciate everyone participating in the rap name contest. however, i have already picked a winner. my main man ekorts is victorious.

my new rap name will be a combination of his two suggestions....

FIVEHEAD SCIZZY

will be comin' at ya large and in charge in 2004. keep your eye out for the underground bootleg recordings of this masta gangsta rappa.

here are a few of the other suggestions who got consideration....

busta nutt, puff noggan, big daddy puffsalot, king kong pundy, mc gravy,
chronic logic, funky biggs, busta bighead, and mc puffpuffgive.

i'm excited to know that there are a few clever minds amongst us. i'm looking forward to thinking of another contest. the giveaway will be a personally autographed picture of yours truly. this will be no ordinary picture either. i don't know what it will be yet, but it will reek of coolness.

alright, i've got the idea....

the contest will be in 25 words or less describe how cool you are. the winner will not only get an autographed photograph of me, but will quantam leap into another coolness realm. the deadline will be next friday at noon. only answers emailed to me directly at bignoggan@yahoo.com will be accepted for the contest.

good luck....

i was reading some of the movie scene discussion on the egroup earlier and i thought i'd give a few of my nominations for greatest movie scene.....

1. Al Pacino's speech at the end of "Scent of a Woman"

"No, I'm just getting warmed up."

2. Jimmy Chitwood's 19 footer at the buzzer in the Indiana State Championship in "Hoosiers"

3. The entire last scene of "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest"

4. The scene where jack nicholson smokes a joint with peter fonda and dennis hopper in "Easy Rider".

5. When Andy Defrayne stands in the rain with his hands held up after crawling through 500 yards of raw sewage.


well, i'm gonna go watch the world match play championship.

eat a big one,

scott